The Lost Lover Regained (Chapter One)
“Falling in love is awfully simple but falling out of love is simply awful”,which is a very true sincere piece. It was 3rd April 2009, 8:34 pm, when received a message from my school time friend Sonam which reads: “I am going to United States today, I will talk to you once I get there, take care”.
I was in deep thought as to what she wants to tell me, because she never sends me message like that. It seemed something very urgent and maybe it is concerned with my life.
She was my school time friend and married to a software engineer. And was working in a software company in Delhi. Her husband had been transferred to US and she was going to join him there. It seems that the message was sent from the airport.
Next day was a usual day for me. Which I simply forgot about her message too. At around 8:30 pm she gave me a call. And said “Hi Sameer, how are you? I was in a hurry that day so I simply sent you a message. I was boarding flight to USA. Also, I want to tell you something which seems to be very important in your life”.
That made me excited “What? Please tell me, I am dying to hear what you want to say.” She replies “I had been in Jammu for few days. I met Sonia’s sister. Sonia is going to marry in the mid April and she was busy in preparations for it. Please forget about her as she is going to be someone else’s wife now”.
I became mute for a moment?. It seemed as if someone has taken a heart away from my body?. As if I was a body without soul, a warrior defeated in the battle of life. Tears flowed from my eyes, my heartbeat increased and it seemed my heart will come out of my body.
She asked me, “Are you there Sameer? What has happened to you? Are you alright?”“Yeah, I am alright. When is she going to be married and what does her fiancé do?” I asked in great despair. “Well I don’t know more details about that, but Sonia works in Delhi and her fiancé is also in Delhi and also he is from southern part of India” She replied.
It reminded me of her reluctance to make me talk to her family on the basis of caste. Her family had orthodox views in matters related to caste. But, what about her marriage to a person, who was not only of different caste but belonged to a very different culture. Why her orthodox family did not object to her marriage with that boy. I have many questions to ask.
Why she was not hesitant in talking about that guy with her family? Why the person, who loved me, hid the relation from everyone even from her close friends or she was simply playing with my emotions???? Is love related to the physical aspect of a person or is it related to emotions??
If someone loves the person like me simply because of mercy, am I an object of pity? “How did it all happen? How?” I asked her with tears?. “Forget about her dear. She does not deserve you, you will find a much better life partner, forget about her once and for all”.
“I am in tears Sonam. How can I forget her with whom I have spent two years of my life? Why she has done this to me?” I asked with a broken heart. “Leave her now dear, think about your life in future.
I am feeling guilty, I shouldn’t have told you about her”, she said with guilt in her heart. “Ok dear, I have to go now as I am not feeling well tonight, bye” I said. She replied, “Take care of yourself and close this chapter once and for all dear and please don’t lose heart, take care, God bless you”.
It was the most despairing moment of my life, even worst than the worst I have ever experienced. Even worse than my breakup day. I was in tears, sleepless the whole night. As if someone has taken something very precious away from me.
Which is even more precious than my life and kept thinking of the past, the moments spent with her. I was unable to understand what to do. However, I was like a dead person whose soul is out of his body.
Sometimes thought of ending life, but destiny desired something else.
“You have to live, not for yourself but for her, you have to. You have to find her wherever she is and with whom she is with, ask her many questions, ask her why she had ruined my life. Now, I would have to ruin her life as she has done to mine?.
Is it possible to destroy the life of someone you love so much??
Let’s watch out what happens in the next chapter?.
The Lost Lover Regained (Chapter One)
Story by: Neeraj Gupta