The Lost Lover Regained (Chapter Four)
One day my friend Rohit asked me if there was someone who could tell about the fare of airlines as he had to go to Bangalore for interview.
I said, “yes, one of my friends is in airlines” and I called her. I said “Hi”. She had not expected my call. So hesitantly she replied “hi” I asked “one of my friends has to go to Bangalore, so can you please tell me the fare”. She replied in a low tone “yeah, I will let you know tomorrow”. I replied “ok”.
It was a strange experience of talking to a girl with whom I had good friendship but only through messages. Through messages we came to know well about each other. We cared for each other but on voice call it seemed as if we were strangers to each other.
Next day, she called me up and told me about fares of airlines and asked me to repeat what she was told by her. I replied hesitantly but was not in order. She gave a laugh and cut the call. It was a great experience that she shared her laugh with me. I messaged her “your laugh is very beautiful”. She replied “Thanks but I was very much scared while talking to you, don’t know why”.
I replied “Me too, and that’s why I didn’t remember what was said by you.” Then next day I called her and talked to her. Now I was bit less hesitant in talking to her. I was feeling some energy in my body and didn’t know where it came from. I felt as if some angel had stepped into my life and gave some meaning and strength to it.
That night, she called me at 1am. I was very much surprised on getting call. We talked till 5 in the morning. She asked me about my family etc etc. I asked her to cut the call but she kept on telling that she was not feeling sleepy and wanted to talk to me.
That day I realised that Sonia had something for me and she really cared for me. But I could not gather courage to tell her about my health and about my inabilities. I was scared of telling her these things as I was afraid of losing her. For the first time I blamed God and medical science for my sufferings.
It was my biggest mistake that I did not tell her the reality. Though I was getting the care and love of a girl, which I had never ever experienced in my life, but sometimes I felt that I was playing with her feelings. A thought was also there in my mind that true love never cares about anything or it does not have any condition. Sometimes I used to ask myself whether it is possible for a person to love another without even seeing her or him.
Is this the love? Love with the voice only. But whatever I felt for her cannot be explained in words, then what was it? No one has defined love. Love is not the terminology but a feeling for someone, for whom you care. So I was experiencing new excitement in my life. We used to talk once during the day time and once at night, after dinner.
I got selected in one of the competitive examination for the entry in a post graduation course. I called her “hi dear, I got selected in a competitive exam for PG course”. She replied “congrats, I have full faith in your abilities”,. But she said in a sad mood “now as you are going out of city, will you forget me?” I replied “No dear. How could I forget my dearest friend and it is because of you that I passed the examination” It seems strange that I gave her the whole credit and not my family who were the main contributors.
But love is a strange thing and I was also expressing my selfish nature. So a strong bond of friendship was getting formed between both of us. However there was an insecurity in my mind that whenever she comes to know the reality about me then what would happen to this so called love.
Though we had feelings for each other but we had never ever expressed that. Feelings are to be expressed by deeds but not by words. My attitude changed for my family also. Now, I was more polite, started caring for my family, my mother. These changes were there in me because of that girl and it is truly said that “Behind every successful man there is a woman and behind every unsuccessful man also, there is a woman”.
May be I am getting too harsh for women,blaming them for everything. One incident which made me realize that it is impossible for me to live without her was when she was going to Bangalore for a training session of 7 days.
Let’s watch out what happens in the next chapter?.
The Lost Lover Regained (Chapter Two)
Story by: Neeraj Gupta